MY STRUGGLES AS A CHRISTIAN

1. How people perceive me to be

What people thought about me use to bother me. People automatically assumed because I was a christian that I lived a perfect life. They wanted me to live a way that was pleasing to them but ultimately I have to live a life that's pleasing to God. It took me a while to adjust to this new christian lifestyle.

2. I feel like I have to be perfect

I still struggle with this everyday. I have a tendency of beating myself up whenever things don't go my way. When in actuality its not my way, its Gods way. I have to remember that no one is perfect but God. I may fall short at times and yes I may sin. I have to keep reminding myself not to stay down but to get up. "No matter how many times you fall down, always stay strong and have the courage to get back up again. Never give up!"- unknown source

3. I find myself questioning my faith

I find myself questioning what I am supposed to be doing for God. I know I was placed here for a purpose but I sometimes feel unworthy. I question if he made the right decision. I struggle with learning the bible so how can I tell people about him and I don't fully know him? In order for me top stop struggling with this I have to work on strengthening my faith.

4. I don't feel like I make time for him

When I first came out of the hospital I was praying day and night. I would pray so much that my mouth would get dry. I had no urge to eat or drink. My main focus was him. The way I prayed and worshiped him was fulfilling. No food nor drink could have filled me in that way. I started to notice that my desire to pray was starting to take a back seat to my daily life. I still prayed everyday but it wasn't as much as before. I am still a work in progress. I am striving to get back on the path that I once was on.

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